Category Archives: voluntary work

Thinking of ending this blog.

I’m thinking of giving up this blog in favour of something different (maybe to do with my depression/low mood). Nothing much seems to change on the day to day benefits fight for the better and to be honest I’ve obviously not been keeping this blog up to date due to my mindset and the numerous other things I’m pursuing in an effort to make my life and that of my family a bit better.

My partner is still on the work programme but it’s not moving forward, in part due to the offices closing and them not finding any premises for over three months. I can’t see anything much changing for the foreseeable future and my head is all over the place. I don’t think I’m a bad person but my life has been hard and doesn’t get any easier. I’ve made and continue to make bad decisions, but I have tried to be a good Mum and equip my children to cope in the real world. I’ve applied for numerous jobs but often get no acknowledgement and am still jobless. Nothing seems to run smoothly for me and on top of having to struggle along on a tight budget, I have had a six month running battle with a utility company which had to go the the ombudsman due to getting absolutely nowhere on my own.

Although I do no paid work I am constantly on the go, feel like I have little time for myself, I am the one who everyone comes to with all the family problems. I don’t see myself as one of the ‘scroungers’ but am aware that is increasingly how the public view people such as myself. Maybe they are right? After all people do manage to work with children and a depressed partner. I’m increasingly disheartened and disillusioned with the direction this country is travelling. I’m not sure where to go from here.

Thank you all for looking at this blog, I’ve had more hits than I ever imagined when I first began it as a place to offload and try to help anyone I could. I am not going to close totally just yet and will continue to post should anything happen or come to mind that may be of any use to anyone.

Cheers for the support. Bye for now.

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And so it goes on………….

Things just ticking along here so not posted in a while. The effective cut in benefits is starting to hit home and we are struggling to keep up with bills and putting food on the table. Although I pride myself on being able to manage on a very tight budget there will come a point when even I can no longer do it! We have to begin paying council tax next month out of less money than we have ever had to manage on before! The business idea is coming along but slowly due to the other things I have to contend with and if I don’t manage to get it up and running before Universal Credits are brought in I will struggle more than at present to make a go of it. Have still had no news from any of the voluntary work I applied for – it really is that bad round here. Am not going to give up though….. as difficult as it is to keep motivated I need to know I tried my utmost to make things work out for us.

My partner has a WRAG interview at the jobcentre next week… not sure what good it will do but we’ll see………He also has an appointment for counselling re depression.

There are casualties of this government’s policies all over the internet due to the reduction in benefits, bedroom tax and no or very low wage increases which don’t keep up with increasing prices, while at the same time MP’s begin to talk about giving themselves a 10% pay rise. It beggars belief that they really are so out of touch with the ‘ordinary people’ in this country. Could they rub our noses in it any more than this…….. believe me they will if they get the chance!! What a bunch of self-serving b*stards they are!!!!!!!

Major meltdown

Not written for a while as not much to report. Our friends have moved and are very unhappy, in fact unhappy isn’t strong enough they have sunk into a depression. The place they’ve moved to is a shit hole and they have no money to fix it up. There is nothing you can say to them is there? Personally I would have stuck it out until I could’nt go on any longer but realistically unless the jobs market changes there is little chance of them getting employment so perhaps they had no choice. It’s a really sad place to be – pushing 60 with nothing to show for it.:(

Here my partner has had a letter saying he’s in the WRAG group and detailing his benefits breakdown but we aren’t sure if this is the result of his medical or not as there wasn’t any points breakdown. Or do you only get that if they refuse you ESA? He has also had a letter with an appointment for a work related interview next month. We’ll see what happens!

Myself I’ve just had enough. I’m in the process of trying to start a business but it is off-putting when they are changing the benefit rules to penalize even this. I’ve applied for a few jobs but no joy, have applied to volunteer, no joy, it seems I’m stuck in this trap. To be honest and I’m sorry if this sounds callous but I don’t want to be where the buck stops any more. I don’t want to be the one who sorts out all the bills, keeps the house something like clean, feeds everyone, washes and irons the clothes, sits doing anything they can to make a bit of extra cash on the internet, just so we can have the things we need. I don’t want to go out shopping and come back to find the same mess I left when I went out because him indoors can’t be bothered to do anything. I’m losing the plot. Being the one who runs the house I could cope with but being the one who runs the house and has to deal with someone who is negative from the minute he rises everyday is just too much and I want out. I’ve had enough!!!

 

IT’S BEEN A WHILE!

It’s been a while since my last post, unfortunately life has got in the way! Since I last posted I have attended a careers advise session and an interview with my jobcentre adviser.
At the careers session I was given a computer to sit at and a questionnaire on the computer went through my likes and dislikes, whilst the adviser went off and left me to it. It came up with a few interesting things, a few totally unsuitable things, (hospital based in clinical areas when I’ve been known to faint at the sight of blood!), and a few pie in the sky. I was also asked by the adviser if I’d considered IT as I had completed the questionnaire by myself when most people wouldn’t have. I’m no whizz by any means but I have studied office based computer courses as I feel everybody needs them these days don’t they? I came away with a list of potential careers to peruse.
At the jobcentre, where I turned up at the alloted time to find it hadn’t yet opened, my adviser appeared to have noted very little from our previous two sessions! I was asked questions for a third time and then told that unless I needed help with a CV perhaps voluntary work was the way forward. A conclusion I’d already reached before any of these interviews! I was then told I wouldn’t be called in again unless the criteria changes with the introduction of Universal Credits.
I could have done all these things from the comfort of my own home, instead I’ve had to attend pointless time-wasting interviews in order for these people to justify their jobs.

On the ESA front, it looks as if the back money we are owed has been paid into my partner’s account although we have received no written notification and therefore need to wait until we get a statement to clarify this. At last we may be able to sort out our finances, well at least until the introduction of Universal Credits or my partner is called in for his PIPs medical!!

In the meantime I continue to look for that elusive job and am toying with the idea of starting my own business, but more of that later………

Careers interview

I attended my second interview at the jobcentre yesterday with a careers adviser, having been referred by my benefits adviser. The meeting consisted of  a half hour interview which though interesting on one level, was of little use in helping me find work. I was asked why I’d been referred and when I told the adviser it was because people with partners claiming ESA are being called in, the response was ” we’ll just go through the motions then.” As you can imagine I began to think why are they wasting both their own and my time when they clearly have decided it will be of little use to me. The adviser had no access to programmes needed to help in my decisions about what I may like to do and so the only option was to conduct a personality test. This I did find quite interesting though I have a fairly good idea about my personality, after all I’ve had it a long time!!:) To be fair the result was fairly accurate but of limited value in my opinion.

I now have to go again next month in order to use the computer based careers programmes. What was the point of me attending an appointment when the right tools weren’t available to the advisor? It wasted my time as well as theirs. With every appointment I attend I become further convinced that it is an utter waste of time and of no value to me whatsoever. I was willing to attend these interviews in the hope that they would be of some help to me in finding work but if I wasn’t pessimistic about my prospects before I most certainly am now!!

Work Focused Interview

Well I went along for my interview and it went ok. Not sure how valuable any of it will be really as most of what was said I was already aware of. Have been offered a launchpad place, not sure if I’m going to take it or continue to look for voluntary work under my own steam. I have been told I’m under no obligation to take up any of their schemes and that they are there to offer me help. The personal adviser I saw did however seem quite naive about just how bad it is out there- which I was surprised about really, surely working in the jobcentre they should be all too aware of how tough it is? I have agreed to go to a couple more appointments and this time will have my questions ready (now I’m aware what it’s all about), and will take it from there. It did all sound good but I do know that a lot of these back to work programmes are of very little value in reality and seem to be designed to put forward the view that they help when in fact they are of little or no use in securing a permanent job.